"No one's got it all..."

I talked to stunning musician guy on the phone. Complete and utter failure. I’m pretty sure my words weren’t even audible. I wasn’t expecting he was going to call, and technically he didn’t mean to call me (to be explained). I got extremely nervous. I haven’t done the “talking on the phone” thing since probably middle school. I was a phone talking pro back then. I could not breathe well the entire time I was talking to him. This has never happened. My face flushed, and still has yet to become normal in tone even though about a half hour has gone by. There was way too much nervous laughter on my part. Not to mention saying cool like every other word. I hope he reads this so I can apologize for being an awkward human being. I’m not even shy. What the heck?

How did he end up calling me? His iPhone literally called me all by itself. It’s a plus that I’m actually programmed in his phone, but the intent to call me was not his own. I don’t think it was a good time to talk. He had to hang up and call back about three times… calling after his son, running into other parents. That’s not a problem. He’s making BANANA muffins today. My mind was going into anaphylactic shock just hearing about it. I guess he was married. The details on this are kind of vague and confusing. Something about a green card. He still lives with her! I’m glad I was sitting down because the room started fading to black. I had to focus on not passing out. This is not a good situation. I’m a good girl. Not a potential home wrecker. I like the creative aspect of musicians, but I'm not out to find a bad boy (man, I guess). If you know my life, you know it has its own forms of mess. I don't need someone else's mess too. I clearly need to ask more questions. I’m horrified and slightly devastated. On-line dating is misleading.

I’m finally talking to someone on the other website. We’ll call him cynical journalist. He is 23 and went to school for journalism, hence the name. He just got out of a three year relationship last year. What is with all these guys and these crazy long term relationships at such a young age? I’m slightly surprised by it. His life goal is to be a crime-solving journalist. It reminds me of the mystery books I’ve been reading recently. He likes pineapple pizza and Jack Kerouac. I approve! He has a dog that he goes running with, and plays guitar in his free time. Our letters to each other are extremely long because we are both writers and get lost in thought. We’ve talked about travelling, and about how he can get more involved in volunteering. This is probably the most promising person thus far.

I’m still talking to the foreigners. They are still great to talk to. That one Swedish guy with the great profile got back to me. He told me all men from Sweden are pretty amazing. He’s promoting the entire country which is so funny and cute.

Alright everyone, I’m going to go listen to music and do things that do not consist of on-line dating. I hate to have such a short post, but the skanky musician guy thing threw me for a loop. I’ll be fine. Hope everyone else is having a great weekend!

-SJ

(Note from iPod playlist – “Hero” by Regina Spektor)